The days without you.

Here i am again..

wiping the tears that just won't stop falling since i started writing this.. 
for you.

only the last memory of you and me was whats left inside this drowned heart..

...... 
… on that early morning

on that ~jeepney was the last..

or will it be..

the last that i was..
right beside you..
......  

the whole time on that ride we never said anything to each other..

like strangers that never crossed each others path…

can't even look at each others faces..

and if i can..

"the pain makes me want to look away..

look away and wipe the slightest tear that i kept so hard from falling down my eyes..

because an insensitive man doesn't know how to cry"-Scape
......  

but after i left you that day..

after i took you to where you should be..

i walked away…

as fast as i can..

far away from you..

i don't want you to see how an insensitive man cries..

no i don't..

because i know who i am to you..

the most insensitive person that you ever knew.
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i walked away..

but don't know where to go..

i wanna shout and tell the world~
THAT I CAN LIVE WITHOUT YOU!!

i wanna smile and tell myself that i will be better off alone…

i wanna feel okay..

i wanna..

i wanna keep on crying..

Because i can't pretend that there's something wrong with my life..

that right now I'm living my life..

without you.

...... 

Here i am again..

wiping the tears that just won't stop falling since i started writing this.. for you.

and all those songs that reminded me of you was more than enough to keep me so cold and blue..

when i met you..

for your babies..

in my life..
......   

they where my lullaby's when i used to sleep without you..

now these songs will be here with me..

to keep we awake every night thinking of you.

Because ever since i knew…

that you can live without me..

and you know that i can't
......   

how i wish i could tell you that~
I TOO CAN LIVE WITHOUT YOU!!

how i wish you would need me like i needed you..

how i wish..

i wish that it was still you.

that i wished to be with..

for the rest of my life.

but for now..

know that i have loved you too.

and that i can still love you more..

......  

Here i am again..

wiping the tears that just won't stop falling since i started writing this..
for you.

 ......  
Because i know today..

will be The first longest night..

first saddest moment..

loneliest hour..

 tearful days..

that i will go through in this relationship..

without you.